Dress 1 designed by Maggie sottero This was my fav from her selection I like the lace look actually an how the top fits but I'm worried about my boobs with something so flimsy at the top... this model has a smaller chest lol x

Dress 2 by Ian stuart. This one you cannot see the bottom so I'm a bit worried if it fans out really badly at the bottom but i just LOVE the style I think it loos really modern and that long sleve jacket well I think it looks amazing don't you agree???

Dress 3 By Alfred Angelo its entitled 1839 so I imagine this is suppised to looklike those very traditional lace gowns that they all used to wear and to be honest the dress I tired on in march was a lot like this one my mom said that it looked beautiful on me I wish I had gotten a picture!

Dress 4 by White Rose. This one is not really the look I was looking at but it caught my eye I love how the fabric folds and even the fannig at the bottom doesn't bother me so much!!!

Dress 5 Justin Alexander this is the very dress I first tried on and I can honestly say for the first time in my life I loved the way that I looked!

Dress 6 by Ellis Bridal again not the look I said I liked but this jut looks really good I thinks its beautifull x

Dress 7 by sincerity and I like this because of how it spreads out at the back beautiful x

It’s been a trying few weeks for me and I just have to take this time to yet again apologize to you all for my sudden disappearance last week from spaces. The reason for my absence will be explained in due course but I thought I would take a moment to say thanks to everyone who has still taken the time to come and comment me despite the fact I have been gone and to all those people who where concerned about my “quietness” thanks for caring! Anyway the source of the dilemma that was to make me so miserable for almost a week and a half was my Packard bell laptop! It somehow yet again despite the fact that I have Norton anti virus, managed to get a virus. The virus shut down my whole system and the stupid computer went on a loop of turning itself on and off and on and off again. It was very annoying. Going into safe mode didn’t help either because the password had somehow changed, we had no idea what to! Anyway the whole thing just wouldn’t work and to top it off I’m quite the gamer actually and I had bought myself a new game and I couldn’t play it. So then Damian calls me up a few days later at work and he tells me that theirs a computer brand new at work returned by a customer that decided he wanted a bigger screen and it had a huge chunk of money then knocked off of it. That made my heart sore and I was so very much wanting to get online again and speak to friends and catch up with things. So I told him to get it at least then we would have a brand new and hopefully reliable computer. So anyway h brought it home and well we booted it up and I was looking at this thing in pure amazement there are some great accessories on here but I hadn’t got a clue how to use this machine it wasn’t windows after all it was apple Mac technology which I was very unsure of and unfamiliar with. Anyway I still couldn’t get my game to work and also I couldn’t use msn either! I was slowly growing more annoyed by end of last week so David offered to help me fix the problems I was having and he had an apple Mac so he gave me a few pointers on how to use the stuff on here and well I’m back and feeling much more confident about the computer and using it. I’m gonna have to split my hard drive into two so I can get windows on here to play my games but that’s not gonna be too difficult. As far as the future of my Internet I’m excited at all the new things I can do and I’m slowly coming out f the dark and being able to see the sunshine again!!!

 

A quick message...

So folks I've not been in the best of writing moods this past two days. Probably because I'm not really thinking about it but thinking more about my two boys anth the fact that they will be home with me in less that 3 hours! I'm so excited! A message to Lisa who won my poetry comeptition as soon as I get a little time with them I'll get onto keeping my promise for you winning the prize! I just really cannot get my mind into anything else it's killing me to even write this because I just want to run round the house and jump and dance and sing! It's been a tough week without them but it was nice to spend a bit of time to myself even though I still had Libby to contend with. All the mad adventures I've had this week including the most important of them my job interview, which I'm happy to report went very well and I reall enjoyed the whole day. It was a group thing and we had to do lots of different activites with the other prople there for the job. I know there are only a few positions up for grabs and ten people were in that interview so fingers crossed I'll get one of them! They seemed impressed by my knoledge of the industry when we were set a task about writing the good qualities of service John Lewis offer. We basicaly had to tell them all we knew about the buisiness, such as that they are the biggest partnership in the uk with all its staff being the partners and recieveing a persentage in the companies takings. They get them by way of a sweet bonus each year depending on the stores performance!

Have to go now to pick up the boys but ill finish this blog later hugs people!!!

Ridiculous Concerns…

 

Why is it that with all the terrible things in this world a person such as myself has to worry about, riots, murders, rapists, terrorists, and the threat of war, I always seem to find myself getting upset about the most trivial thing!

 

The first was my socks! I’d remembered getting 5 pairs of my best back socks out for my stay at my mom’s and then when I came to open my bag last week they were no where to be found, and I felt suddenly annoyed at the thought of them still lying on my bed at home or back in my sock draw! The next was my toothpaste. After watching several adverts over the week I had decided to try “Hollywood smile whitening toothpaste” and see if it would give my stained teeth a bit of a shine. You get a chart so that you can measure the change in colour and at first it seemed I was noticing a difference. Then the other day I decided to check again and it seemed like they hadn’t changed whatsoever! Ridiculous how much you are promised with these products and they never bloody work! Like that Johnson’s self tanning moisturiser. It’s supposed to slowly build a light tan as you use it every day. Well I get a showered every day so I would use it and you know what I got? Orange patches on my legs, my hands and worst of all… my bloody bum! Oh and not forgetting those wax strips for your bikini line! Please! They never work. I had a shower, I dried off I sat and I applied, I braced my self for burning pain, I pulled, I screamed, and I looked down at red skin and sticky hairs!

 

So you would think that as above with this world I wouldn’t worry too much. So I brush this off. Then came the very heart of my pure annoyance.

 

Now they had always seemed lovable kind and friendly to me before. However over the past 5 days at my moms I have come to the solid conclusion that I hate practically all old people! There are few that I like for real! They are honestly the people who seem to think that they have nothing better to do than ridicule everyone else because they are retired and bored. When they could be spending that free time doing something more important because if it were me I sure would be! I said to mom NEVER ever get like that please mom! She simply smiled at me and said “Lisa the only time you’ll see me like that is when I’m tired!” Fair enough I thought note to self stay clear of mom when she is sleepy. But that doesn’t help with the others does it? No you get them a lot in Bridlington to be honest! Let me tell you about the worst ones shall I? The most miserable of the lot of them! Dog haters! Well if I had taught my Libby to growl and pinch bums by now I would have set her on these 3 lots of people I’m gonna tell you about for sure!

 

It started on Sunday. We got up as planned at 8 in the morning and set off for the south side of Bridlington and the one beach I could have walked on all day and never got fed up of! It is a well known fact that it’s a place everyone who has a dog goes on for walks especially in the mornings. So it was going lovely. Libby’s first walk and all and suddenly an elderly couple appeared slowly behind us and well Libby, she’s a people’s person really and she bounded over to say a friendly but boisterous hello! What happened next sparked some of my worst language usage in years! The woman screamed as if she had seen some kind of monster and the old man lashed out trying to kick my poor little girl! I screamed in anger and ran over to him asking what he was playing at and the old man simply said:

“She’s your bloody dog get it under control and out of my site!”

…excuse what you are about to read if you are easily offended look away I’m sorry people but I speak my mind when myself or anyone I love is threatened!

“She’s only a baby you miserably dickhead she doesn’t know any better get lost yourself why don’t you!” and the poop bag in my hand nearly got thrown at his head! Mom said “no, no don’t!”

“Come on mom it’s still really warm and fresh let me hit him with it!” she had to really tell me off to stop me doing it!

You would think that was the end of my troubles! You would be very wrong!

 

Couple number two about 50 year old looking people early retired rich too it seemed also strolling along and she runs off to say hello! I knew it was gonna happen before it did the old man smiled but looked quite annoyed and the woman removed her sunglasses and said “You should have trained her by now!”

You’re probably thinking well that’s not so bad? Maybe it wasn’t but the fact that I had just had previous annoyance thrown in my face 10 minutes earlier sparked up that Lisa rage again!

“Listen she’s 3 months old she can only learn so many things at a time and she’s only being friendly what would you rather her do bite you? At least she hasn’t done that? I’m sick of you people why the hell you feel walking on a beach that people use everyday to take out there dogs and not perceive that someone’s pet might say hello to you? You should use some other beach for your morning strolls and stop telling others what they should and shouldn’t be doing with there pets!” Yes I was relatively polite in my words that time. Still angry but much better language!

 

Finally comes the worst one! Yesterday I’m walking with mom on the north side. Now the rules here are tricky. One side of the beach is out of bounds and the other you’re aloud to use for dog walking. The tricky bit is that the bit dogs are aloud on is split into two as well for some strange reason and you can walk your dog on half of it only when the holiday season ends. So it would be a simple error on mom’s part if she had been bringing Sam to the restricted section when it wasn’t the holiday season to get confused and forget! So some old twat! Thinks it’s nice to shout at my mom and say she should start taking more notice of signs, and that he was going to take our picture to the police!

The Lisa rage built again and this was the worst one ever!

“Look you f*****g miserable old b*****d my mom made a simple mistake. I have a camera here and I won’t hesitate to use it on you and take your miserable f*****g picture to the police and have you done for verbal abuse and being in violation of being the most annoying stupid time wasting old git I’ve ever laid eyes on! So waste the last moments of your old frail life annoying someone else!”

 

Yes, yes rather rude but I simply had had enough of it! Really some older generations they just have nothing better to do with there time than bitch to us about simple mistakes we have made! Mom had been working since 3 in the morning and she made a mistake! If he wanted to just say that we had and leave it at that we would have apologised and thanked him for the information and moved along but instead he had to be rude and shout at my mom like he did!

 

Oh what a world we live in today! LOL!

 

 

A lovely Call…

 

So Damian called me today which was so lovely. He mentioned how they were having a lovely time and had been doing so many things including getting a lovely sun tan! Joshua came to chat too, he started by telling me about going to the beach and playing sandcastles and how he had tried to catch a fish for me but it swam away! Also he mentioned about a big fair where he played on all the rides and won some prizes. He asked me if he could talk to Libby bless him! She has missed him so much too yesterday me and mom sat to watch back some old recordings on her camera and sure enough there was Joshua happily playing in the garden

Libby suddenly hearing the sound of his voice jumped up and started prancing around the room looking for him! She looked desperate at one point running around d the sofa and shouting him which I thought was absolutely adorable! I say to Joshua Libby is sleeping now because I didn’t want to let her hear him and her get upset again! Josh last comment was:

“You go to bed and ill be back soon mom when I’ve finished nanny and granddad here too and we going out I love you goodnight!”

Well it cheered me up anyway!

 

 

FOR AL THE WONDERFUL COMMENTS THANK YOU SO MUCH I AM VERY PLEASED TO HAVE YOUR SUPPORT MY COMPUTER HAD SOME ISSUES SO I VE BEEN OFFLINE REPAIRING THEM AS SOON AS I CAN YOU WILL ALL RECIEVE GREATFUL REPLYS PLEASE COME BACK AGAIN XX

 

XOXOXLISAXOXOX

A boost of Inspiration…

 

It was while reading a friend’s blog today that I realised something… I miss spaces I miss the people and signing in to discover great new comments and opinions. With that in mind I felt I would love to come back. However my main worry is that like the last time my space may be deleted. For some strange reason the last time I out so much effort into this blog it was destroyed! All of my writing all my comments all my lists my music files all gone! I have no idea how it happened only that it was very upsetting for me and I thought not to ever return to spaces when it happened!

 

It was this morning as I read my friend Syn’s space who is now celebrating one great year of blogging that I felt a sense of loss. He too described the happiness of meting new friends and of opening his heart to his writing and I realised that my true passion is to write and so I should continue almost as a start fresh! Rather than blog randomly about many things I’ve decided upon a space theme. I want to write a diary here, as well as have this space become a calling for anyone such as myself who is inspired to write poetry, novels, music anything that is held deep within them and crying to get out. I’m going to share my writing here too for you all to read and share with me your input and opinions good or bad.

 

I want to get back what I had here before and more! I want to write again like I used to! I hope that I’ll make some great friends too along the way and maybe in a year’s time I can look back at this blog with a great sense of happiness and achievement just like Syn has!!! So I’m going to share with you now something I’ve been working on over the past few months and I’m really proud to have written Its only a very small sample of a huge project but I hope you enjoy…

 

 

Battle of The mind ©

 

Riglom stood wary of her chanting as she spoke the ancient tongue once more.

“Winds of the sky hear my cry” suddenly a cold wind blew around the wood clearing and lifted the fallen leaves into the air. They spun around camouflaging Liana. Toru took flight and soared around with the wind his huge wings wafting more leaves into the air. Riglom lost sight of her amongst the confusion and searched franticly. Then a flash beside him turned his attention. He spun round in anger and lunged into thin air. Another flash and pain struck his arm as he had been sliced by Nilar.

“Show yourself evil elf!” he screamed. “You’re a coward!”

Liana emerged in front of him she held Nilar by her side. Riglom’s green blood covered its shiny edge. She wiped it on her cloak.

“Now I’ve had enough of your games, it is time to finish this once and for all!” he charged at her then screaming and cursing angrily. She called out with her mind to Toru and he came to her side. Riglom continued to charge despite Toru’s approach.

“When the time comes take me to father and tell him what happened here!” she said. Toru clipped his beak in understanding. Liana called upon the magic again from within her she spoke the ancient words.

“Blue ice of Godrin Mountain; fill my sword with your power.” Her sword began to glow a mystical blue and a strong cold wind blew around her making her hair dance around her beautiful face. She pointed her sword forward and pushed the magic from it towards Riglom. He cried out as it hit him in the face and cast over his body leaving him stood on the valley path nothing more than a statue of ice. With her last ounce of strength Liana swung her sword and shattered him into a thousand pieces. She stood for a moment before exhaustion finally took her and she fell backwards. Toru caught her and lifted her gently onto his back. Without another thought he respected her wish and took off into the air leaving the wind filled clearing behind. Below him a dark figure masked with a hood stood looking up at them as they flew away into the early night sky.

 

The masked figure stood within a windy clearing on the edge of the great wood. Hundreds of goblins were running out of the trees and away towards the gap of Palinther that carved its way through the Shinther Mountain’s. The hooded figure looked down at his feet. Thousands of ice shards lay on the floor before him and the figure grew angry and displeased. With his mind he pulled the shards back together. Fitting the pieces in there rightful places until a statue of a frozen goblin stood before him. He chanted dark words and a grey smoke enveloped the statue. When it cleared Riglom stood with his sword in the air screaming! He paused and looked around him confused, as though he had lost something. He realised then and threw his sword to the floor in anger!

“She is gone Riglom.” The hooded figure hissed. “You disappoint me greatly.”

“Captain, Sire, Lord, Great one,” Riglom grovelled. “You have given me another chance to honour you, I will not fail again!”

“No you wont, because next time you get chopped into a thousand pieces I wont be here to fix you back together!”

“The army!” cried Riglom turning to look down the valley path. “What’s happening where are they going?”

“I have called a retreat. Watching her fight today filled me with much wonder. She has great potential. Yet she is the daughter of one of the king’s high senators and he cannot afford to be disgraced by her actions. She mustn't discover her true potential. For that is when the downfall of the goblins will be inevitable! No we must seek to destroy her with some other means!”